Okay so last week, shazzy got a yucky cold over a week ago and is still getting over it at the minute! Also on friday - started to have a really eughy tummy over the weekend but thought nothing of it really but Monday night I was soooo ill! I shall spare you the details but basically I spent the whole day on Tuesday in bed...unfortunately, I sent a message about being ill to the wrong phone at work so everyone was trying to get hold of me and they were really worried about me. Two of the girls I work with even came to my house and knocked the door but I was dead to the world as I hadn't slept the night before...How sweet though! Couldn't imagine the manager of Tesco coming round to see if I was okay...such a joke that would be! He would just demand to know where I was and why I was not there to ensure I served enough customers to make sure he was able to get that new BMW!
Anyway - enough rant about illness! Its making me bored anyway! I was really sad to have to miss work, I was going crazy being in the house all day - I hate not achieving stuff and it gets me down if I haven't got stuff done so my day in bed was not an enjoyable one but I did do some reading which was all good I guess.
I also spent some time praying and God has been revealing a lot of areas where I need to allow His healing touch but although it is something that I really want to happen in my life because I know I am not going to be able to move on in my faith or in life without it, part of me is still cautious to let God in and I can't work out why...I guess I have been hurt so much in the past and in fact quite recently and I am finding it hard to open my heart up again...why though - come on!! Its God! He is not going to hurt me. My head is a little all over the place today and I would appreciate it if you could pray for me regarding this issue
On a more positive note, it was nice to get back to work today although I had a lot of things to get caught up, some filing to do and a few residents to catch up with. Now that I am more aware of what my job actually entails, I need to work out how to get everything that needs done fitted into a day so that I can be more effective in my job. I was really challenged today to be praying for my residents more as well because I haven't been doing that. I guess I am just feeling distant from God right now as I feel like I keep messing up loads and find it harder to forgive myself than He does.
Ok - time to get out of this internet cafe now! I am starving right now, haven't really eaten much in the past few days and my tummy is yelling - "shaz feed me!"
Love you guys loads and really appreciate hearing from you and for your prayers, Shaz xxx
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